Amazing Weekend

May 4, 2009 at 4:35 pm (Uncategorized)

I can’t believe how smoothly things are going with Neeraj! I feel like since we have gotten back together that I am complete again and everything makes sense. It is never enough time with him… ever. I spent two years of my life not being with him because I was incredibly stupid, naive, unsure of what I wanted in life and was very impressionable. I have grown since then into a person that knows what I want. I am not so naive and I don’t really care what people think of me and my life anymore. It used to be so important. Really, the only thing that matters is what makes you happy.

I feel like a better person for even being around Neeraj. He has admitted the same feelings for me which makes everything so much more meaningful.

I just transfer to his school for the summer so I can be with him more. We will even have a common class. That makes things so nice. However, the class would be at 8:00 am. Yuck!

Anyway, what a great day this has turned out to be!

Hope everyone else has a fabulous day!



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Working Out

March 18, 2009 at 6:25 pm (Uncategorized)

Why does getting back into shape take so long? I am sore all over. This is silly. It really is good to be back in a workout routine though. I can tell it has already started affecting the way I feel and look.

I am so ready to be happy with myself again.

I know that I will have to wait like 2 months before I can do any sort of confrontation, but it will be worth it once I look good again. I will have more confidence, and believe me I will need more than a little of it.

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Fighting the Urge

March 17, 2009 at 7:13 am (Uncategorized)

I am fighting the urge to just go out and buy a whole bunch of crap. Instant gratification… that is what I want. I am trying to cope.

I have wanted to go buy some new perfume, that wii i have been wanting, a new big screen tv, some new clothes or shoes and a digital piano.

It is a good thing I haven’t yet because I should deal with one thing at a time.

It has been hard for me to be my happy self today. I had a test which I think I did well on, but more importantly, I had plans for tonight… now I don’t because of what happened last weekend. Mer.

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St. Patrick’s Day!

March 17, 2009 at 3:52 am (Uncategorized)

Hey everyone! Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

It is my very favorite holiday! And, I am part Irish thanks to my grandma Telline.

Everyone wears green and everyone drinks green beer. (Well, those who drink at least…) Green is my favorite color, so yay!

I did play volleyball last night and now I am sore. I haven’t used some of those arm or shoulder muscles in a couple of years. I get to be sore on St. Patty’s Day, awesome…

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Yeah, so I have been a little bored today.

March 14, 2009 at 4:23 pm (Uncategorized)

I think I am going for a record number of entries today… at least for me. I am usually always busy on the weekends with things to do and people to chill with. Today, that is not the case.

I am currently watching Baylor and Missouri play for the Big 12 championship. I really hope Baylor wins because they took out the Jayhawks, and I hate Missouri with a passion.

Why are half time reports so long? Gees. They have way too many commercials.

Anyway, I am just bumming around and listening to some new music. Again, thanks (That was from a previous post.) Right now I am listening to a more mellow song, “Boston” by Augustana.

So I had a delivery from UPS today. Unfortunately it wasn’t for me. It was for my nonexistant roommate. Ha. She is never here and I don’t mind it. I like my privacy quite a bit. Anyway, it made me remember something. “What can brown do for you?” Yeah. I guess it is kind of an inside joke, but it made me really happy.

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No Wii

March 14, 2009 at 4:06 am (Uncategorized)

So last night Erin and I went to a lovely coffee shop downtown. After that I decided that I wanted to go to walmart and buy myself a wii… It has been a long time coming. Alas, when I got there they were sold out. I went to the wrong freaking walmart. The other one I went to a day before had like 15 of them. I took it as a sign that I shouldn’t get it right now. Maybe I will wait some more.

I just believe in signs and fate too much. I probably would have felt bad about getting one. I don’t really need to be buying myself things right now.

However, I am so proud of myself. I got like 7 hours of sleep last night. For someone who never sleeps that is so good. I have to admit, I did have the help of a Tylenol pm. I never do that, but it had been so long since I have been able to get more than a couple of hours in the morning. I feel so good today.

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I have Heat!

March 12, 2009 at 5:45 am (Uncategorized)

So I just talked to the repair people to have them come out and look at my unit… my heating unit. Ha.

Anyway, I had a blown fuse, a bad igniter and filters that hadn’t been changed since I moved in. There were supposed to be changed every 3 months. Oops. How was I supposed to know these things? I am a girl and my father used to do all of that for me. Now, he doesn’t.

Gees. It is still 53 degrees in here, but hopefully it gets warm fast. I have been wrapped in about 4 blankets all day. I think I needed like 8 though. Hee hee. Plus, it is supposed to get down to about 29 degrees tonight. I didn’t want to be that cold…


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March 12, 2009 at 2:26 am (Uncategorized)

I swear, if my life couldn’t be more complicated at the moment… gees.

I am pretty sure now that Evan likes me, likes me. This isn’t good. I have only ever been in the friendship realm with him. I bet he will think that when I break up with Adam pretty soon that I will want to date him. I get that overwhelming feeling that it is eminent.Yeah, that isn’t going to happen.

Anyway, I am super bummed that my heat doesn’t work here at my house for some reason. I changed my batteries in the thermostat and it still hasn’t worked. It has been 55 degrees in my house for two days! My hands don’t even want to type properly. I might be becoming a snowwoman.  :  )

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Weird Dream

March 10, 2009 at 10:57 am (Uncategorized)

I had the weirdest dream last night. I was back at my high school and I was looking for Neeraj. It was like we just had a fight but we got back together. We were walking around the halls again together.

Ha, yeah right. That isn’t going to happen. Number one, that is out of the question. Number two, I never see that high school or my hometown for that matter. And finally, number three, there is no way it could be that easy.

When I found him I said I was sorry and I started walking with him. Then he tried to kiss me and I basically attacked his face, in a good way. I haven’t done anything like that since we were together. I mean, I haven’t ever attacked Adam’s face like that. Anyway, in my dream my heart was racing. I thought it was going to pound right out of my chest. I woke up sweating and my heart was still beating fast.

It was so extremely bazaar. I am so glad that this specific dream wasn’t wasted into nothingness. What I mean is, I am glad that I could remember this one. I wouldn’t mind reliving it in my dreams tonight actually.

: )

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February 23, 2009 at 5:57 pm (Uncategorized)

So, if something happens that I don’t end up going to Paris and Dublin and Adam and I brake up really soon I already know what I am going to do with the money I have saved.

It has been some time since I have spent money on myself so here are the three things I want (in no particular order).

I want a Nintendo Wii.

I want one of those super small laptops, like 10″ or something.

I want a Digital Piano Keyboard.

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February 23, 2009 at 4:46 pm (Uncategorized)


Granted, Blake Griffin was out… but we still won! Plus, we hold the number one spot in the Big 12 now!

Also, Sherron Collins rocked tonight! I was a little worried that first half, but Taylor made up for it. He had a wonderful game. Man, Cole Aldrich also had a great game! Gees, that just makes me happy!

Rock Chalk Jayhawk!

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Kansas Theme

February 20, 2009 at 3:17 am (Uncategorized)

I am getting so excited to be going to Kansas City. I seriously cannot wait!

Saturday I am heading up to go to the Nebraska vs. KU game at 3:00. I am going to try to get into the student section! That is going to freaking rock! After that I am going to head back to Kansas City and check into my hotel. It is a pretty nice one that is located inside the Power and Light District. I don’t usually drink, but this is Mardi Gras and I feel it will be okay this weekend! So, I am going to party it up and I cannot wait!

There are so many places to go, but I think I really want to see what HOWL AT THE MOON is like. I know it is a dueling piano bar, but I really like those. RAGLAN ROAD, THE INDIE ON MAIN, & a few others are also on the list to check out. I have been down there before for the Coldplay and Tom Petty concerts and I loved it. I went bowling at the Lucky Strike Lanes, which isn’t anything like the lanes back home… and I saw a bunch of great places to eat. So, I think I am set.

Ready, Set, Rock Chalk Jayhawk!

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