Funny Quote from Last Night!
Last night, again at the concert, the band was finished with their first set. Todd came over to talk to me. Meanwhile, there was this girl who was very pretty and blond who wanted Church. While we were talking she came over to say something to him. This is what I said after that happened. Oh, and just a little back story, he sprained his ankle and it really hurt him a lot.
Me: “You better watch that ankle. I believe that she may just jump on you at any moment.”
Todd: “Oh yeah, well maybe there should be some kind of obstacle in her way.”
Me: “What? Like hoops?”
Todd: “No. Like you!”
That pretty much made my night!
Hurt and Mad
Last night there was this amazing concert and I went to it to see a band I have been following for a long while – Anthony Gomes… Here is a look at the anthony gomes band that I know. This is with Denis the drummer, but he is no longer with them anymore. From left there is Todd Hamric on Keyboards, Anthony Gomes – lead guitar and vocals, Biscuit Miller on bass, and Denis on drums.
This is the reason I go…
Todd (or Church, if you like) is someone I met a couple of times before and we partied and had a good time. The thing is, I really enjoy spending my time with him – I value the time I have gotten to spend with him. Last night I was going to have the chance to do that until a friend made me drive home at three in the morning until six a.m. to do nothing. She wouldn’t have even had to do anything but go into a hotel room and sleep until morning, but no. I was miserable. I really wanted to stay.. I had been drinking and I was already tired. I just could not believe how selfish she was. I have made so many sacrifices for her it is insane, but the one time I really needed her to come through for me she didn’t. She would not even consider it. Her “boyfriend”, who doesn’t even want to be her boyfriend called me while we were at the concert to get a different girl’s phone number to go and party with her. I was so sad and mad that I wanted to just scream for all eternity. I did not say one word to her the whole way home. She did not apologize and she didn’t even try to talk about it with me the whole way home. I think that this friendship may be over very soon if she does not come change that. If I would have stayed I might have been able to go to Nebraska, which is only three hours away from Kansas City to see them tonight because this morning Todd called me and asked if I want/could go see them there! That would have been awesome!
My favorite lines from my favorite movie!
Mr. Darcy: How are you this evening, my dear?
Elizabeth Bennet: Very well. Only, I wish you would not call me “my dear.”
Mr. Darcy: Why?
Elizabeth Bennet: Because it’s what my father calls my mother whenever he’s cross about something.
Mr. Darcy: Well, what endearments am I allowed?
Elizabeth Bennet: Well, let me think…”Lizzie” for everyday, “my pearl” for Sundays, and “Goddess Divine,” but only on special occasions.
Mr. Darcy: And what am I to call you when I’m cross? “Mrs. Darcy?”
Elizabeth Bennet: No, you may only call me “Mrs. Darcy” when you are completely, perfectly and incandescently happy.
Mr. Darcy: And how are you this evening… Mrs. Darcy? Mrs. Darcy… Mrs. Darcy… Mrs. Darcy!
[kisses her]
Upsetting News-flash
I was just thinking that I have lived in Springfield now for about three years and I have never once had a boyfriend that was here with me! How sad is that? I could only imagine what it would be like to have one that was here and I could just call up and say, “Hey, let’s do something right now!” Wow, that would be great! I of course shall be patient!
On another note, I was taking a personality test the other day… don’t worry this one is legit. It is the Jung-Myers-Briggs personality approach and I found out that I am the INTJ type. It is crazy because it fits me perfectly. Check it out!
A Little About my Personality
I think it was pretty accurate… my top six were…
1) Artistic
2) Physical Fitness
3) Intellectual
4) Individuality
5) Romantic
6) Accommodation
Today was Interesting!
Today I was sitting in class joining in on a philosophical debate and the person I was “stuck on” was also in the same debate. Anyway, he was on the other side… after class he came over to talk to one of my friends and said hi to me on the way like he wanted me to stick around so that I would talk with him. The thing is, he has a girlfriend now… I finally see that I was either not good enough or not his type. I hate that. It is the not knowing the reasons behind his actions or why it wasn’t me – that bothers me. OK, back to the story. I was blocked in where I was because no one around me could get out. So, I forged my own path. I moved, as quickly as I could without causing too much racket, a desk in front of me and completely ignored him. It made my day. However, I do occasionally see him staring at me from across the room. I like it. Ok, that is well enough of that for a while.
The Scientist by Coldplay
Come up to meet you
Tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Aw let’s go back to the start
Runnin’ in circles
Comin’ our tails
Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aw take me back to the start
I was just guessin’
At numbers and figures
Pullin’ the puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back to haunt me
Oh when I rush to the start
Runnin’ in circles
Chasin’ our tails
Comin’ back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Aw It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m goin’ back to the start
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Bitterness
You know, I think I like being single. I don’t need to count on anyone for anything. I am more independent now than I have ever been. I realize that it is okay to do something stupid, or fun, whichever… every now and again while completely knowing it’s a retarded idea. Plus, I know that if I wanted to be with someone I could be. I have options. But by taking those options means it would close out the ones yet to come. I wholeheartedly think that I will find someone when I least expect it. I don’t want to be looking for him. I want it to find me. Is that weird? I don’t think so. I think that fate will just take my life right to where it needs to go despite what I do in the present that I know isn’t going to go anywhere. However, I know that I get “stuck” sometimes on one person. I can’t help it. There is just this one person that I can’t help but like no matter how many times he hurts me. I know that he doesn’t like me and I don’t want to like him. I just do. I wish that there is something that I could do to stop wanting him. But so far, it’s been months and I still want to be with him. He isn’t even in my league – I am way too good for him. Yeah, I know. I went there. Maybe it is just because I am bitter. I desperately want to hate him, but doing that has been harder than I could have ever imagined. I still don’t know anything about him because he never left me get to know him. Someone, somewhere hurt him too. I don’t know. Maybe I will just get over it. I need to. I really, really need to.
My Favorite Song at the Moment
Modest Mouse – Parting Of The Sensory Lyric
There’s no work in walking in to fuel the talk
I would grab my shoes and then away I’d walk
Through all the stubborn beauty I start at the dawn
Until the sun had fully stopped
Never walking away from
Just a way to pull apart
Dehydrate back into minerals
A life long walk to the same exact spot
Carbon’s anniversary
The parting of the sensory
Old old mystery
The parting of the sensory
Who the hell made you the boss?
We placed our chips in all the right spots
But still lost
Any shit-head who had ever walked
Could take the ship and do a much finer job
This fit like clothes made out of wasps
Aw, fuck it I guess I lost
The parting of the sensory
Carbon’s anniversary
Just part it again if you please
Carbon’s anniversary
Who the hell made you the boss
If you say what to do I know what not to stop
If you were the ship then who would ever get on
The weather changed it for the worse
And came down on us like it had been rehearsed
And like we hope, but change will surely come
And be awful for most but really good for some
I took a trip to the exact same spot
We pulled the trigger, but we forgot to cock
And every single shot
Aw, fuck it I guess we lost
Some day you will die and
Somehow something’s going to steal your carbon
Some day you will die and
Somehow something’s going to steal your carbon
Well some day you will die somehow and
Something’s going to steal your carbon
Some day you will die and
Someone’s or something’s will steal your carbon
Some day something will die and
Somehow you’ll figure out how
Often you will die somehow and
Something going to steal your carbon
Well some day you will die somehow and
Something’s going to steal your carbon
Resolution
Nothin’ but an empty page
Breathin’ in an open space
Captured by your moments grace again
There’s so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything’s so undefined
I’m standin’ on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear
“Chorus”
Here’s my resolution
I’m letting go
All I need to learn is
Along this road
And I just want to be the best man
I can be
Breathe
It’s my resolution
Livin’ life without a plan
Findin’ solace where I stand
Learnin’ how to love again
And all I want is somethin’ real
That I can feel
“Chorus”
Here’s my resolution
I’m letting go
All I need to learn is
Along this road
And I just want to be the best man
I can be
Cause here’s my resolution
I’m letting go
All I need to learn is
Along this road
And I just want to be the best man
I can be
Breathe
It’s my resolution
My resolution
Something Interesting Methinks 